Monday, June 16, 2008

"Bud For President!" ... =(





My good friend Bud died a few days ago, at the young age of 33...heart attack.
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Bud was the most genuine, kindest, funniest, most smart-ass, live-life-out-loud, do-anything-for-his-friends, kinda' guy...
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...HE WAS THE ABSOLUTE BEST!
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I loved him, and I cannot believe this world will be without him...he was a true and amazing LIFE-FORCE of brilliant, white light.
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EVERYONE LOVED BUD...and I mean, EVERYONE!
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For the past several months, he had this huge, professional yard-sign propped-up in his front yard: "BUD FOR PRESIDENT"...and it was just sooo "Bud"... =(
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I attended his wake today...I am going to the funeral in a few hours. I will most definitely drown in my own tears.
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I don't know how I am going to make it thru this day......and see his 3 little girls cry for their daddy.
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This world is definitely a much sadder place without Bud in it...without him in our lives.
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Bud introduced me to my husband in 1999...I BEGGED him to!
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I made him get out of bed one night when he was sick as hell with the flu, to go out with my girlfriend and I to go see Gary's band play. I KNEW I had to meet that man...and he was basically Bud's surrogate uncle.
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So...one thing led to another, and...BAM! After that night, Gary and I were inseparable for years.
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Bud called me "Aunt Snow*" forever after that day... (even though he and I were not that far apart in age...but I was still AUNT SNOW*...and I laughed every single time he called me that! ;)
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He was one of the usher's in my ENORMOUS, fairy-tale wedding......I had to give him strict instructions to NOT carry my mom down the aisle! To simply escort her...and nothing else! LOL! He actually did as I said...although it WAS very tempting for him!
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Bud worked his second job as a bouncer, at the bar next to the one I worked at for the past 5 years.
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On Tuesday nights, all the bars on Main Street would have "Hip Hop/College Nite"...with DJ's spinning stuff to make your ears bleed! ;)
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Well, we were SUPER busy, and massive brawls would invariably break out every Tuesday...I was SURE I was going to end up getting shot one night! Ughhh...
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We did not have a door guy for a few months...and whenever the huge fights would begin, I would climb over the bar and run next door, and yell, "HELP!" at Bud!
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He would rush over and save the day! Bud was as strong as an ox...and he could freaking CLEAN HOUSE!
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No one messed with Bud...and if they did, they were in extreme peril. He was my champion on many occasion.:)
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I will miss him terribly...
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I will miss laughing with Bud...most of all, I will miss hearing what he had to say NEXT.:(
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I dedicate a song in honor of him...
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"TATTOO", by Jordin Sparks...here are just a few lines from it...
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"Live every second like it was my last one...
Don't look back at a new direction...
I loved you once, needed protection...
You're still a part of everything I do...
You're on my heart just like a tattoo...
Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you...
I'll always have you, I'll always have you"...
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~~~I love you Bud~~~
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***BUD FOR PRESIDENT***

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

*SIGH*...Haven't you just wanted "MORE"???...






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...at some point in your life?

MORE purpose, MORE destination, MORE meaning, MORE ability, MORE vision, and MORE of the ability to know how to get there...just, MORE everything.
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When you are at the point where you are wanting...needing MORE "everything"...that is when you know it is time for your current "everything"-status to change.
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I am so saddened at the state of my life, our society, our country, and the world in general.
Things are not going all-together too well, no matter where you look. Everything is seemingly going to hell-in-a-handbasket, no matter where you turn...and I do not really see much positive progress.
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I am trying to be part of the solution, not part of the problem...I have been trying to streamline my life...go GREEN, help protect the environment...and always protect the animals, first and foremost.
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However, those who are trying to obliterate the world's societies, as well as our delicate Eco-system...seem to far out-number those of us who are trying to HELP this planet...and not hurt it.
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So, how do we win??? How do we make it happen?
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With all the political red tape, crap, and chaos which abounds...how can anything ever actually get done?
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It is defeating and demoralizing at times...with the horrendous reports of animal abuse on the news, the seemingly constant reports of some new cataclysmic natural disaster which has befallen yet another Third World country...the never-ending crisis in the Middle East...the constant threat of attacks by terrorists...and the ever-rising gas prices...I am overwhelmed.
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I remember when $5 of gas would fill my tank halfway...and now it may eventually be that much for a GALLON of gas???
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There are so many resources in this world...natural resources, man-made resources, and the resources of the people, in general...exceptional people...people who must surely out-number those who are the sick, twisted, and evil...right?
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But, the problem seems to lie in the fact that the sick, twisted, and evil hold most of the power...because they have most of the resources...like in the Middle East.
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I know it is a song-and-dance you have all heard a million times, and it may sound pretty simplistic...but...WHAT THE HELL????!!!...Why can't we all just "get along"? REALLY?!
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We're born, we live, we die...why does it all have to be such a bloody battle?
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The crazed zealots over in the Middle East, China, etc., are enslaving and annihilating their own people...with the women being some of the primary targets. ..the same women who gave birth to their crazy asses, and take care of all of their needs.
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It is truly sickening...and I do not understand why it is allowed to go on.
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Mainly, I JUST DO NOT UNDERSTAND THE MIND-SET OF SOMEONE WHO CAN ACTUALLY HARM ANOTHER SOUL...be it animal or human.
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How deep is the mental sickness of someone who can actually DO the heinous things which are happening over there...and all over the world, as well?
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And THOSE are the people in power around the globe...the backwards, in-bred, completely mentally deranged psychos are the world leaders!!
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No, I am NOT making any witty references to our OWN country's leaders. Those snotty attitudes of bashing our own President also need to change.
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No matter who we voted for, the person actually elected President should be treated with patriotic respect, and honored...until a time comes where he/ (she???) has shown that he/she is not deserving of that respect.
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But, to bash our own leaders right off the bat, just because they are a member of the "opposing party" is a bunch of bull-shit.
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We are all the SAME party..."Americans"...it doesn't matter, in the end, what "party" banner they run under. As Americans, we are internally squabbling about semantics, and only making our country weaker.
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Sure, there are problems here...but the world's society--as a whole--faces much bigger problems.
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There are threats all over...and nothing ever seems to get done about them.
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The internal bickering and squabbling between parties just wastes money, time, and effort...allowing the crazed zealots around the globe to grow even stronger.
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Just for example...exactly HOW MUCH MONEY did Hillary Clinton blow on her campaign??? For what??? Yes, she may have actually gotten the Presidential bid...and she may as yet get the VP nomination.
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However...how much actual "good" did that money do for her...and how much COULD IT HAVE done for those seriously in-need?
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Like...say...those in New Orleans...who are still suffering from the fall-out of Katrina! It looks like a war-zone down there still, and the residents of the wards which were completely wiped-out are still living like refugees. It is atrocious, and that is just one of the examples.
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There should be a REALISTIC spending cap on all political campaigns.
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Yeah, yeah...I know that there is SUPPOSED to already be...but they always find creative ways around that...for which they should be ashamed.
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If these politicians spent as much energy, and were as creative with fund-raising and funding for the poverty-stricken, and those causes seriously in need of attention, then maybe their efforts would actually make a difference.
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It appears to me, that most people usually concentrate on helping out "#1"...they keep their "eye on the prize"...yet their "prize" is just this little dot in the big picture.
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Like, I said before, I just want "more"...not just more for me...but more for US...for everyone. I want more "GOOD", and less "BAD".
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I am feeling quite inferior in the grand scheme of things, as well as feeling quite ineffective.
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However, I shall muddle on...trying to do my part...helping out with charities...trying to help the environment...being kind to strangers, cherishing my family and friends, making my beloved animals secure in the fact that they are safe and loved, and saving every animal that I can.
just wish that EVERYONE was doing the same.
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Think about it...if EVERYONE in the entire world was working for the good of the whole...had the WORLD'S interest at heart...and if there were no crazy-ass bastards ruling foreign countries (enslaving and mutilating their people, and then coming after OURS)...
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...if we were all just one big happy rock, spinning thru space...think how amazing that would be?
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Why is that too much to ask?
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Remember that old "Coca-Cola" song from the 70's?...
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~~"I'd like to teach the world to sing...in perfect harmony...I'd like to buy the world a Coke, and keep it company...that's the song I sing."~~
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That pretty much sums it up.
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Well, NICKELBACK went a few steps further with their song: "IF EVERYONE CARED"...it is an exquisitely profound song...
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~~"If everyone cared, and nobody cried...if everyone loved, and nobody lied...if everyone shared, and swallowed their pride...then we'd see the day when nobody died..."~~
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How much CLEARER do the "directions" need to be????
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I adore the way NICKELBACK writes songs that have actual MEANING...and are not just drivel about break-ups and heartache...
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THIS song is about WORLD HEARTACHE.
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*SIGH*...Haven't you just wanted "MORE"...???
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MORE of the "good"...and LESS of the "bad"???