Well, isn't THIS just frickin' WONDERFUL!!! ;( ...
...IN A HORRIBLE SORT OF WAY!
SO...yeah...after 5 hell-filled years of twists and turns and ups and downs...
...after having dedicated my life to the bar I have worked at for the past 5 years...
...after spending most of my time with the eccentric and eclectic customers at that place...a place which was a lot like "Cheers"...yet with live rock bands!....
...where I made those people my FAMILY...
...the small, unusual staff; often babysitting the owner's little girl, and giving Mother's Days gifts to the owner's mom...
...the bizarre, the unique, the ho-hum, and the hum-drum customers...
...the crazy-ass bands which ran the gamut of incredible to completely awful.
I organized Christmas parties...threw birthday parties for staff members as well as the owner...brought frozen pizzas to make after work on Saturdays for our 4am pizza-bashes with the band "Metropolis"...
...where I first met Boomer and my best friend, Bille.
Where I was the first one to ever dance on that marble-topped bar...and where I sang with the bands..."99 Red Balloons" and "Bitch!" ...never sounded better! LOL!...
Where I created and sold ZILLIONS of shots! I am the freaking "SHOT QUEEN"!..."SNOW WHITE APPLES" are the BEST!!! (Yes, yes...I named that shot after myself! LOL!...It is yummy, though!)
HOWEVER!... Now...after 5 years of dedicating my life to that place, to the complete *^^%%#%^%**-IDIOT of a boss...after an entire week spent at death's door and not able to work......I learned that my boss sold not only the bar, but the entire freaking BUILDING this morning at 7:30 am!!! :O
Well, isn't that just damn, bloody dandy!?!?!?!?
Yup...I have spent the last couple hours crying hysterically, feeling sorry for myself, and mourning the death of the last 5 years of my life.
So...onward and upward, huh? I am now in the midst of re-evaluating and revamping ...anyone out there have any ideas?
Hello?...Anyone?...Anyone?...Bueller?...Bueller???...???
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So, what sucks is that this is so stupidly hard!...I get so emotionally involved...way too much for my own good. I always believe in the best of those around me...and give my total all to my friends and family...and to those who I THINK are my friends!
I end up staying way longer after the fat lady has sung...determined to go down with the ship...while at the same time, the captain is sneaking off in his life boat!
It really just breaks my heart. I have given so much, and given UP so much for that place, the people, and most of all to Wade, my FORMER boss/owner.
I have endured emotional abuse at this hands, dealt with his crying and sobbing hysterics when his dad died, the anniversary of his dad's death, and for MONTHS after his girlfriend finally left his sorry ass, and took their 5 yr old daughter with her!
He cried for months, and we had to have a friend of his come and remove all of his hunting guns from his apartment upstairs...he WAS going to blow his miserable brains out...no doubt about it.
Boomer and I were the only ones who were there every step of the way...suffering right along with him. I am the only one who has ever consistently given that man b-day and X-mas gifts...he has no friends, and his family is sick of him. His mom was the only one always there on Fridays...and that is because she was keeping an eye on her investment!
I fought with Boomer INCESSANTLY when he and Wade had their actual physical fight...when Wade attacked Boomer and broke his hand...Boomer wanted me to quit, was really upset that he thought I was not standing by him...and continued to go in to work.
I was determined to keep my job, not wanting to become entwined in their drama...even though I know now that it was the wrong choice.
Wade never gave me or my future a second thought, much less even ONE thought! He totally dumped me out in the cold and left me for dead.
Boomer is the only one here to pick up the pieces! (And my mommy...and YOU all!)
Hanging on-line and hearing all of the kinds words from my friends today has really helped me thru the loneliness and helplessness.
Thanks to all of you!!! :)
I end up staying way longer after the fat lady has sung...determined to go down with the ship...while at the same time, the captain is sneaking off in his life boat!
It really just breaks my heart. I have given so much, and given UP so much for that place, the people, and most of all to Wade, my FORMER boss/owner.
I have endured emotional abuse at this hands, dealt with his crying and sobbing hysterics when his dad died, the anniversary of his dad's death, and for MONTHS after his girlfriend finally left his sorry ass, and took their 5 yr old daughter with her!
He cried for months, and we had to have a friend of his come and remove all of his hunting guns from his apartment upstairs...he WAS going to blow his miserable brains out...no doubt about it.
Boomer and I were the only ones who were there every step of the way...suffering right along with him. I am the only one who has ever consistently given that man b-day and X-mas gifts...he has no friends, and his family is sick of him. His mom was the only one always there on Fridays...and that is because she was keeping an eye on her investment!
I fought with Boomer INCESSANTLY when he and Wade had their actual physical fight...when Wade attacked Boomer and broke his hand...Boomer wanted me to quit, was really upset that he thought I was not standing by him...and continued to go in to work.
I was determined to keep my job, not wanting to become entwined in their drama...even though I know now that it was the wrong choice.
Wade never gave me or my future a second thought, much less even ONE thought! He totally dumped me out in the cold and left me for dead.
Boomer is the only one here to pick up the pieces! (And my mommy...and YOU all!)
Hanging on-line and hearing all of the kinds words from my friends today has really helped me thru the loneliness and helplessness.
Thanks to all of you!!! :)
XOXO...
SNOW*
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